HAVE YOU EVER JUST REALLY WANTED TO KISS SOMEONE BUT YOU CANT
I SAID THIS TO SOMEONE TODAY AND HE TOLD ME “WELL WHATS STOPPING YOU?” AND IT REALLY CHANGED MY LIFE SO I KISSED HIM AND HE KISSED ME BACK AND KISSED ME AGAIN AND AGAIN AND I FELT LIKE I WAS IN A MOVIE.
This was really fucking cute
I like it when you show that you care. That’s all I ever needed from you.
I miss when we were “happy” together and all the stupid shit we did. I miss how comfortable we could be around each other. I miss playing cod with you even though you were much better than me. I miss the way your hair smells. I miss wearing your clothes and not having to wear a bra. I miss falling asleep next to you. There are so many things I miss about us. But in between every “I miss..” there is an “I don’t miss..” I could go on for days about my feelings, but it wouldn’t change anything. It didn’t back then and it wouldn’t now. Just know that you’ll always have a piece of me. I don’t want you to ever lose it or forget about it. I want you to keep that little piece in your heart forever. But I also want you to open up your heart and your mind to all the possibilities and options that you have. All I’ve ever wanted was for you to be happy. You deserve it. And there is a wonderful and beautiful girl out there that deserves all the love you have to give. The blissful thought of your happiness out weights the disgusting thought of you with someone else. So go take a chance on someone.
Some days are harder than others, but every night is horrendous. The thoughts in my head race around creating a whirlpool of destruction. A tornado of pain and passion that I cannot stop, that I cannot even hinder. I fight with myself night after night. All the tragedies I’ve dealt with leak into my dreams and the only thing that can pull me out is the wonderful but dreadful sound coming from under my pillow, my alarm. I wake up. I am sleep deprived. I withdraw from one nightmare and enter another one. I carry myself with a broken smile and hope that today will be better than yesterday.